Falseless Complexion

To make it official than on the overrated Facebook status, I am finally home. Actually, I have been home since the 20th at approximately 1:00AM. I was actually scheduled to arrive to Walnut somewhere around 11:00PM, but there were a numerous amount of delays. What makes it more irritating was that these delays were last minute: once when Eric and I came in to check-in our baggage, another time when we were about twenty minutes from boarding, and once more when he and I were in the plane waiting impatiently for a pilot to fly the plane. If I were to attempt to make an optimistic perspective out of all this, at least I got home since there were many unfortunate few who had to fly out of state and had either cancelled flights or had to live in the terminal for a night. Plus, at least I had company with Eric and I was fortunate enough to talk to Shark with free Wi-fi to kill some time. I found it rather sweet that while Eric was playing Mario Kart 64 on his laptop, he immediately paused it and said “Happy Birthday” to me when the clock stroke 12. This was the first time being in the plane during my birthday.

Home was the usual, and I grew to get used to it. Sort of. Although I was surprised that my mom shared alot of things with me that I never would expect. As we both sat in her Mercedes, engine and lights off, every word that my mother and I conversed of felt alive and meaningful. I empathized more of where she came from and why she tends to hold endless grudges that my siblings and I would never understand. After that moment, I learned to admire her more.

One thing that I totally underestimated was how much my friends wanted to celebrate my birthday this year. I initially thought that we were going to plan the Christmas party together on the same day as we planned during Thanksgiving. Thus, I was reluctant to plan since I didn’t come home since the night before and I was swamped with finals till the 19th. Surprisingly, everyone came in with presents for me. I stared down and asked if we were supposed to plan the Christmas party that day, which everyone answered that it was postponed till the 29th. Looking at everyone coming to the party and wanting to plan everything for that day truly made me touched and very happy that I had friends like them to rely on. I also felt rather guilty since I haven’t bought half of them a present this year, which I should definitely make up next year. I am so grateful for you guys, you certainly made my spirits much lighter and happier after what’s been happening the last few weeks. It was certainly a great start to Winter Break, and I can’t wait till the 29th to see everyone again.

Today was the last day to eat my antibiotics. Yay!

Bad Timing

Surprisingly, I have another case of uninary infection. The element of surprise is that I am still in the middle of my finals and this became another problem of the many that I’ve been trying to deal with.

Ugh, I hate my life. Truthfully, I rarely notice that my birthday is coming up this Saturday. Now, I really don’t care and I’ve grown to be more apathetic about this day.

I REALLY hope this pessimistic mentality changes. But at this rate, it won’t.

Bittersweet

It’s interesting to see how much creativity comes into making sushi. Though in many ways now the cuisine is slowly deviating away from it’s origin, but high in demand. I’m skeptical whether or not it’s allowed to call those rolls under a “fusion” category of Japanese food, since I highly doubt they are really this creative there too. Perhaps it attracts the customers more seeing creatives names such as “under the sea” or “lion king” as a dish name.

Although it seems like I haven’t updated this for a while, I have, but I just didn’t finish it. I plan not to either since it was supposed to be for a pre-Thanksgiving post, but seeing that Thanksgiving past for a while now I see no point in sharing.

Lately I’ve been more bitter of what’s going on around me, especially the people. I find it surprising that our floor doesn’t have any drama and we all get along. There are many instances that I try ignoring the bitterness and the things that have been bothering me, but it hasn’t been doing well. Unfortunately, it’s been affecting me physically too since I noticed that I’ve been having more stomach aches than I have eating. I still eat, don’t worry about that. I just happen to eat less, but I guess that’s a good thing since I’ve been eating more healthy food, especially cuties!

People were also surprised of the shirt that I bought recently, commenting about how morbid, disturbing, and depressing it is. I’ve looked at it a couple times that I’ve also become slightly startled by the design as well, but I still think it’s money well spent.

Have I grown more bitter? Maybe it’s just the slight stress from finals. However, the more I stare at my grades and the performance that I can do for the final, the more I grow nonchalent about my grades since there’s not much I can do to change it. I will still try my best though, I wish whatever is bothering me will hurt me less than it is now. I hate the feeling that I have many things that are in my mind, but I can’t do anything to fix it.